my heart is missing yours.

i miss you.
i miss you i miss you i miss you.
i've realized no matter how many times i say it, it won't bring you back.
but that doesn't make me stop missing you.
it doesn't make me stop missing your heart.
i won't ever stop missing your smile or your laugh.
the times we spent together are always on my mind.
memories of our late night chats are triggered by the smallest things.
you understood me like no one else can.
you could see right through my hard brick wall.
you knew me. i knew you.
it hurts to remember, knowing that i don't have that now and knowing i probably won't for a quite a while.
but i won't stop remembering.
i will relive it a thousand times over because i love you.
i still do.
and because those days were the best days of my life.
i could never forget that.
i've stopped asking myself what happened, because i know.
i hurt you. i hurt you so much and i'm so sorry.
i was stupid. more than stupid, i was an idiot.
and if every tear i cried could show you how sorry i am, i would cry forever.
i've never met anyone as special to me as you.