have you ever wanted?

absolute true love.

This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him. -John 3:16-18

i adore the message bible.

sometimes you just need to see things in a new light. :)

who says?

earthquake.

last night, something tragic happened.
there was an 8.9 earthquake just off the coast of Japan.
the 7th largest earthquake in the history of recorded earthquakes.
the worst quake to occur near such a highly populated area.
it was a shallow earthquake, which means the waves were going to be huge.
and they were.
i watched the coverage from midnight to five in the morning.
i watched as they showed the water destroy everything.
i watched as a monster came up and swallowed up whatever it could.
i watched as people tried to escape.
i watched.
over and over and over again.
and that same thing is happening all over the world.
other tsunamis have hit.
more will hit soon.
and the process will be repeated.
over and over and over again.


the images will never leave my mind.

her eyes filled with tears,
her heart consumed with fears.
no hope for what tomorrow holds,
dreaming to like what will unfold.

wishing that someday
someone might come along
to hold her homeless heart.

my heart is missing yours.

i miss you.
i miss you i miss you i miss you.
i've realized no matter how many times i say it, it won't bring you back.
but that doesn't make me stop missing you.
it doesn't make me stop missing your heart.
i won't ever stop missing your smile or your laugh.
the times we spent together are always on my mind.
memories of our late night chats are triggered by the smallest things.
you understood me like no one else can.
you could see right through my hard brick wall.
you knew me. i knew you.
it hurts to remember, knowing that i don't have that now and knowing i probably won't for a quite a while.
but i won't stop remembering.
i will relive it a thousand times over because i love you.
i still do.
and because those days were the best days of my life.
i could never forget that.
i've stopped asking myself what happened, because i know.
i hurt you. i hurt you so much and i'm so sorry.
i was stupid. more than stupid, i was an idiot.
and if every tear i cried could show you how sorry i am, i would cry forever.
i've never met anyone as special to me as you.