it's been five months?

today, i have been off the 'market', if you will, for five months! what an interesting five months it has been. full of ups and downs... and i've learned so much. not just about my beaux, but also about myself. it's amazing how that works out, isn't it?

one thing i've learned is that i change. a lot. my career dreams change almost daily, favorite song isn't the same for more than two weeks, things i like/dislike can change in an instant, or however long it takes me to forget why i liked/disliked whatever it was.

another thing i've learned is that i look for direction in people... being a girlfriend for the first time, i had no previous experience in how to act, and i didn't want to act like all the love-sick, boy-crazy girls i've seen. so it was really hard for me to get a hang of not acting like just friends, having no one to look up to or follow really.

and finally, i've learned that i have troubles balancing my time with my boyfriend and my best friends... and when you try to make everyone happy like i do, life gets hard. and the choices you make can change your life forever.

sure it's been tough at points, but it's been the best five months of my life.